To begin this entry, I simply had to refer to my 'diary calendar' to check what date is it today! shocking as I could not even remember the date. How can!

Now waiting for my class to start, suddenly felt tremendously tired and emotional till I want to make use of this 5 mins to pen down my thoughts and feelings. Instead of messaging my friends and 'disturb them just to keep me accompanied.

Lifestyle has been changing for me. Is it a tremendously change or a 36' change? I'm not too sure too. However, I know that my thoughts have change to practicality; words has become more forefront and blunt; behaviour had been even more individualistic.

I've once told a friend that (I need to talk to someone man. As I've been listening and accompanying others. Yet, I want time for my self. I want to relax and talk all I want about anything openly. Basically, want attention but avoiding companion.) How could this happen to me.

Did I close my own doors? or I am in the mids of destroying it.

Sometimes it meant no harm with those words of mine. But it just came out. Maybe I have no other ways of expressing myself better or in the way people seems to perceive of me.

Life just need to be really simple and cry out loud when you need to!

Truly, my words at times of truth from the heart has not change!

class starting, will continue next time.
*PS feeling much better after writing (expressing) this out.

jean.