Slow and steady.

When we rush into things too fast and furious, we need to hit the pause button to slow things down and re-assess the whole situation. The state where we are now, the future state where we want to move towards; and all it takes after that is a dip and taste of every single taste of the process. A moment of saltiness, sometimes bitterness may overthrown us away from the goal but with the spicy hot taste that comes along, sweetness will definitely follow suit. Just like drinking water to wash away those remaining taste that prevent you from moving forward to taste greater delicacies.

In life, we need to wash away those unnecessary events, experience, feelings, emotions and conscientiousness that blocks our forward march. Experiencing all the tastes of life makes you a stronger person both in mind and heart. Loving it makes you a tougher and wiser person. You can smile innocently, but a smile can be deadly as well. A genuine smile is taken for granted, so is a fake smile that make you uncomfortable. All you can ask in live is a word - Balance. A give is also a take in some ways. Give and Take at the right moment and you will be overwhelmed by the surprises that comes along.

Thinking less of yourself? No. Others think more of you. And it is normally the truth.

Slow and steady, the tortoise won the race.
Slow and steady, I will stage my grounds and path.


 

다시 시작!

In 2007, when I started blogging, many things was happening in my life then. It always seems to be good to be young, you think so?

I thought, it was a misperception we might have, while experiencing those eagerness and energy about life. Especially, into the practicality of life. With full force, we speed and give it all we have without reservation, thinking and believing that was and is the one, most important task or mission we needed to begin in life.

Continuing at that speed, new terms, new relationships rushes into this life. Knowing that you are overwhelmed by it but you decided that these were only the effects of the practical life. Moving on, things get exciting for you. You became more certain that this was the way to go. Reaching your hands and setting your eyes even further to a goal or place where you believe that it has to be, for you.

One step into it. A whole new environment. Brand new friends. No. Acquaintance. You are excited again. A smooth journey through the year(s) did not set you thinking anything. BUT when things began to change, you faced the first slap on your face. It was not how you though it should have been, neither was it the way you wanted it to be.Environment changed, so did people. Selfishness are all visible in your eyes. How bad can it be? Do you still trust? No. I should say, Can you still trust? You can and did.

Another door opened. Stand still or take risk and move one step forward [or one step backward; you didn't know]. You just moved, that's all you know. And then, the light begun to shine on you earnestly without hesitation. Finally, you felt it and want to change, be selfish and re-energize for what you should really be for this practical life. It doesn't matter how long it takes, but how well have you evolve from it and raise yourself up to the world in your own way. Simply, restart.

The first word to learn and act, this year.

긴. 다시 시작.

Clearing. Setting it again.

I was away for too long?

Well, not exactly, I have cleared many things I wanted to do this year. Although there are prices and sacrifices to pay, but it is all worthwhile. I had probably learned four important things in this year. Too early to talk about year end feelings...lol

CHOICE, DO NOT WORRY, BELONGING, DO NOT REGRET.

Simple words like this just meant so much to me. It is about very decision I make in life, every step I take forward, every stroke I swim against all odds and every sight I see ahead of me.

Along the way, there are some who critics, comments, suggests, objects, cares, and even worries for me but I felt the most when someone sincerely encourages me. It may be a type of reassurance but it works magic! Seriously.

Self-Consciousness? How much does it matter to you?

I want to thanks all those who have encouraged me in one way or another in my life this year especially. Your words or actions has bring some magic into my life. Truly appreciate it. I meant it! (though i'm a person of few words when face to face talking about such thing, in my heart I appreciate you) :)

Appreciate.

24. years.

It takes much knowledge, awareness and sharing to make us reflect on all gifts given to and taken from us.

Since young, we have lived in this condition where our parents has work hard to provide for us, the best. Yet, as we've grown up we have forgotten to reflect the efforts by them; for who we are today.

To make it worse, we've taken advantage of it - making them work even harder. Terrible.

Life was very simple. For all I know, to stay alive on basic economical need.
Be fed, dressed and a shelter over your head.

This may sound very redundant to be mention. Of course we all knew it very well but we, human, just likes to demand more things.

To be fed with simple bread and butter, rice and veggies; enough?
I think millions and trillions of hungry people will be more than happy if there is sufficient water.

First world country ;wasting food which can help feed many more. Though many believe to donate $$ to help the hungry. Does it work? The never ending demand on food quality and freshness on scarce resources inflates price.

Worsening the situation, prices of further food donation are inflated even when we do not want to.

Being fed becomes such a complicated topic, what's more to say about being dressed.

Now, being dressed, in modernised world its about style, cut, quality, texture and fashion trend.

Step out of your comfort zone now!
Do something different to how you spend on food, clothes and other spendings.
Don't say "I don't know how!"
It's all about trying and conditioning yourself to change and be a flexible person in all situation.

Be mindful that any incident that may happen around you can change everything you have, enjoyed till now.

For me, learning a new word all over again - Appreciate.

My CHOICE to be back!!

I'm back here.

With a different perspective to relationships with people, after the CHOICE retreat, it gave me wider view and greater appreciation.

Although it can be easily understood that there are many people who loves you and wants to belong to you in a relationship but sometimes we are blinded by modernization that it overpowered or ruled the purest of a relationship.

It takes effort, lots of effort to begin, maintain, control and balance it.

Some reminders each day can be helpful at times.

I've once been told that - I may have change within myself but the world has not and this is THE challenge.

Tough? Maybe but we still need to face it and spread this awareness to more people.

Parents belonging to their children.
A child's belonging to his/her parents regardless of age,status/wealth.
A brother/ sister belonging to his/her siblings.
A husband/wife's belonging his/her spouse.
A person's belonging to his/her partner or friends.
One's belonging to another, is such a miraculous thing.


These exams, I had a better peace of mind than before. Not so conscious of getting fantastic grades or nervous about papers. Felt more calm than ever. Even I, myself, was surprised of my behaviour.

Take things easy and it will be alright. I've learnt.

Do not worry about what will happen in the future, for what comes tomorrow or even the next seconds are not meant for us to worry.

Worrying does not help to resolve physical issues or emotional burdens, instead it loads on more.
So why worry?

Well now, I just need to learn to be loved to balance my relationship with my closed ones - family and friends.
Yes, very random... lol ...its just me.

Nite.

it's time

been missing...her

past 9 days she was away.

i did felt empty and missed her. >.<
not that she was never away for trips but its just different this time.

like a missing piece in my heart. finally she is coming back today. So glad.

I can only say, our mum loves us more than we love them and this is very true. if you agree with me...

we can never do enough to love them as much.
ironically, they worry more for us than we do ourselves.

may those whose family members who had left them in any natural disaster, accidents; be strong and stand again.
may they find peace and forgiveness to those around them.
may every beat of our hearts, be a voice of encouragement and hope to them.
may the missing piece in their heart be filled the way he had planned for them to be

today i shall sing for them.

morning.

slient. here.

I feel much happier now home and studying.

I have lost so much time. I realized. Not being able to do things which helps the ppl around us.

Why was time spent on the small fame or wealth which will not follow us to God.

Silly as it can be.

Many more ppl need help in different ways. What they need are food, comfort and care.

For those who have more than that, do not desire these.
But they have neglected those who need it right away whether they are near or far.

how can I contribute?

I made the decision

Finally. It has been made. Firm and certain. My decision.

(you may have notice) I have struggled for the past months.

this may not be the most beautiful act but it is definitely the most meaningful decision and important turning point for me.

quoted from a song written by Stefanie Kwok

" whichever road I'll take
whatever path I'll make
whereever I may roam

I see your gentle hand
there guiding me along"

I do feel the meaning behind these words so much

and everytime I pray,

I pray that I will see your way,
I will do your will

though I may be blind at times to see your way
deaf at times to hear your words
lost at times to follow your path

but every step I take I just want to be closer to you.

Live in the light,
Walk in the light,
Stay away from the thoughts and actions that lead to darkness

tata

well i'm taking a long leave off Facebook and moments off my blog for the next few months.

let's hope things get better when I'm back.

empty out and fill it up again

for the last 4 days it hasn't been good. happy not exactly. energetic not really. working hard, for the wrong cause.

who and what are the priorities in my life. I wonder. when and how am I handling it. I wonder.

my energy, strength, and madness seems to have driven too far away from me to keep me alive with joy and happiness.

reality has come closer to me ever since. I was wrong in everything. how far more can I go. I wonder.

where is the heart of mine which touches the life of others around me. now I no longer feel touched. why? I wonder.

accept who I am or change who I am. i really am not happy. nothing is keeping me there but my faith. I'm hanging onto it really hard and not letting it go because he has never let me go.

in my lowest point in life, in my most sad moments in life, in my most worrying time in life I know he is always there to guide me, help me and shower me with love. I thank him.

it is for who he made me to be. I live.

please keep reminding me that I should love others as much as he loves us.

Top 1 Picks of 5 Happening events !!!

too many things were happening last 3 weeks in Dec!
lets have a look at the top 5 events in Dec and my top 5 picks of photos for them..

pick 1 - wo ahahah @sentosa & Modesto

hungry huh!

power of leg kicks!! :D
opss..

stay afloat!

Lovely!

Top 2 Picks of 5 Happening events !!!

pick 2 - at amara weird shots....

smelling something not right!!

ice cream was the best
we ate little!

look who's there on mirror effect!

Crazy

Top 3 Picks of 5 Happening events !!!

Pick 3 - met long time no see ppl

@ 4ever 21

Peter @ Marche

nic and mummy

marche

:)

Top 4 Picks of 5 Happening events !!!

Pick 4 - touch by arty perf & MIRRORS

it's mirror madness

super mirror effect!

its not that big la
interior

walking in the mirror

still the mirror effect the best!

Top 5 Picks of 5 Happening events !!!

Pick 5 - Relax and sport

ready for olympic swim?

or Hua Shi performance?
!Long table dinning!

Best shot!

most natural!

it was not good

whole of this week was not good.

People, work, relationship, finance, moods, environment, chances, my room was all in a mess.
Is it something like a end year mess-up time?

No, it better not be...so..

I've clear my desk, pick up mood, adjust my finance, open my eyes, listen and feel for others from yesterday...well.. take a step at a time..

sometimes when you dont know the person working style...its tiring to keep trying out. although she meant good but maybe its just me ...alright.. its midnight soon.. I want my 7hours of slp!!

tata..

Advent.

This period of advent has been more meaningful to me than ever.

Now it is not so much about - christmas food, presents, shoppings and parties.

It's a preparation to know who and why a special person will be coming to us on this day. Every event creates who and where we are now. It is his grace for us that we are saved. Grace gives encourages and gives us hope(2 Thessalonians 2:16). It transforms and help us in our times of need (1 Corinthians 15:9-10; Hebrews 4:16)

Allow your grace and its power to make me a new creation
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I will specially pray for the souls of the ones who faces the most difficult period of life.
May they be well again over any sickness.
May they find the simple happiness in life throughout all obstacles.
May they be free from temptions.
May they learn through the challenges.
And may they share their joy and care to everyone surrounding them.

keep your fighting spirit burning for someone will know you, shall see it and acknowledge it.

I am in preparation,
Jean

some pretty images..

pretty things can be referred to many.

people, things, objects, surronding and many more..
and of course pretty things comes a happy smile.

I've found some happy smiles here!!!

Tammy and me

Kaixin's bridal makeup

Caroline and me

lovely baby in tub! so cute!
you can catch him?/her at suntec!


Qing yue and me

remember to smilezz...all the way!!

saying goodnight

coming....

to the the slower pace of life, a closing chapter, a quieter month, resting month, reflective period.

very glad that I had a relaxing and simple day today. Felt re-energised to keep moving on. This is so important to me as I needed it so much.

what more can we ask of life. Just a quiet moment to listen, feel and see our surroundings of beautiful voices, scenes, people and events that happens. Happiness can spread so can Love.

the bottom line of every emotion and motion is Love. so, it does bring along peace.

I've just learnt today. 2 type of peace.
Peace, where fear was created in people, derive from a protection against your enemies. Always fighting for this "peace"
Peace, where they are unarmed, dervie from within the heart to whom is seeking for it. Harmony will come.

Peace to you, is..?